I have a story. It starts this summer, when I interviewed AC Newman, leader of The New Pornographers and Vancouver's son. I was covering a Canada Day show they were playing in Brooklyn. I became an even bigger fan and told Steve, who generally does what I say, to get on the bus. Two weeks ago during New York's 40-year rainstorm they played Webster Hall. I bought a ticket but got so sick with what I was sure was the bird flu that I couldn't get out of bed to go.
Flash forward to today. It's raining again. What you really need to know about today, though, is that it blew in an operatic, big-picture, marrow-sucking way. It was a marrow-sucker. All day long I had been feeling hideously sorry for myself and listening to The New Pornographers, the only thing I can take on a weak stomach: sometimes they make it better, but they never make it worse. I listened to all three records maybe four times each, focusing my meager powers of concentration on uber-redhead Carl Newman and how his mind might work. Walking up Broadway at lunch, getting to'd and fro'd and shoved around, I noticed that with my new iPod I was hearing certain details for the first time: the six claps in 'Centre for Holy Wars' that come and go out of nowhere and the jubilant keyboard swatting in 'The Fake Headlines'. When Carl was going "la la laaa lalalalalala" in my ear on the subway home I was thinking of the interview and how he looked me straight in the eye and said "sometimes you need a reason to be good" and how that has haunted me and how often I think of it.
I closed the door to my apartment and despite the rain immediately wanted out again. New York can open up and swallow you sometimes, and I was going down down down. I was trying to talk myself out of it, I said "something good will happen soon, just hang on." I'm not even lying about that part, I actually said that. That's gay, right? I thought so, so I washed off my face and decided to go buy some cereal. I get less than one block from my house, in a gnarly, ugly part of Brooklyn with gnarly, empty streets when I see Carl Newman walking right toward me. I stopped in my tracks and watched him pass with eyes like whiskey tumblers, but he was engrossed in his cell phone conversation (a laughy one, of course), and didn't notice.
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